My name is Carrie. I am every day playing the role of a student, gathering information to pass on. I aim to inspire others through the simple practices of earth listening, the power of senses, movement, embodiment, creativity, balance, play, love, and trust.
: the state of being entire or complete
I work with every ‘body, spirit, and mind’ a firm believer in non-duality. As much as I support the universal message supporting feminism, LGBTIQA+, etc… I strive to not ‘perceive’ anyone as separate from the entirety from which we are – which is everything.
EN-TIRE-TY: the state of being entire or complete…which is EVERYTHING.
I work with every ‘body, spirit, and mind’ a firm believer in non-duality. As much as I support the universal message of organized religion, feminism, LGBTIQA+, etc. I strive to not ‘perceive’ ANYONE as separate from the entirety from which we are – which is everything. ‘Labels’ are divisive, can nurture separatism, and inhibit universal growth.
very recently; in the immediate past. exactly or almost exactly at this or that moment. “that’s just what I need.” possibly; used to indicate a slight chance of something happening or being true.
Inner + Energy. Innergy is turning your energy/attention inward and connecting with your senses. It’s the purest form of being in the present & becoming in tune with your highest vibration & light.
Changing the Way We Heal
I am a yoga instructor with a concentration in trauma awareness. I am working towards my Yoga Therapy certificate. I am a Reiki II energy practitioner. I have been an aromatherapist for over 8 years. I am also an intuitive Oracle Card reader. Oracle Cards are used to access the energy of the angelic realms. Oracle cards are different than Tarot cars as they are not utilized to provide answers but instead to stimulate an examination of your subconscious motivations and attitudes in order to move you closer to your spiritual path or higher consciousness.
I am a survivor of childhood abuse, eating disorders, pain-killer addiction, self-mutilation, and depression. For most of my adult life, I have found myself simply existing in an endless cycle of therapy sessions, feeling like I didn't belong, and identifying more with my 'story' and diagnosis's than with myself. The more I told my story, the more I felt completely lost, numb, and empty. Doctors weren't helping. Prescribed medications seemed to just numb the pain and drive me even further from who I really was. Nothing was working. It wasn't until I started diving deeper into the practice of yoga and yogic philosophy that I realized that there was another way. Not only another way, but a guided path. A path that has transformed into a magnificent journey of self discovery, forgiveness, self love, empowerment, unraveling, and love. Are ready to be solely in charge of activating your own innate capacity for inner healing? Would you rather be an active participate in your own healing process rather than relying solely on external sources? My purpose is to act as your personal and spiritual guide that will encourage EVERYONE to explore alternative passageways that have been waiting for YOU all along. My goal is that you will begin to live the life you deserve to be living. In spite of everything, it’s already within you.
The Disease That Changed My Life
If I were to thank one form of healing that came into my life so long ago, it would be Yoga. I can very much say that if it didn't, I would not be who I am today. When I started practicing Yoga when I was 28 - 20 years ago, I didn't do it with the intention to grow spiritually or to fulfill any higher purpose. Like many, I did it to lose weight and as an attempt to become healthier. Little did I know just how profound of an effect it would have on the very core of my living and breathing existence. In 2007, I nearly died of an infectious disease. Rewind 1.5 months before my 5-day stint in the intensive care unit where I was fighting for my life, I started getting intermittent high fevers. Not the kind of fever that makes you feel sleepy and mildly crummy but the type of fever that makes you hallucinate. Next came the rash that covered my feet, ankles, wrists, and hands followed by the gradual malfunctioning of my joints. First, my neck just seemed to stop working, then my elbows and knees just locked up. This all happened within one week. I went to my family doctor. After she determined that she had no idea what was going on, nor had she ever seen anything like this before - I was referred to every specialist under the sun. I was tested for hand, foot, and mouth disease, Scarlet fever, osteoporosis, rheumatoid arthritis, lymes disease, multiple nerve disorders....and nothing. For every blood test invented, I took it. Nothing. This is how this disease takes your life for it is so rare in the United States, there isn't even a blood test to detect it. After so many doctors' appointments and diagnoses of "we don't know," my only directive was to go to the emergency room so they could treat the symptoms. With seemingly nothing left to do but "see what happens." Never in my life had I felt so alone. How come no one could help me? I was young, a mother of 3, in good shape, and dying. When the body is dying, that's one thing. When your heart breaks, like breaks in a way the physical can't even touch - that's a death I would never wish upon anyone. There was one day that I distinctly remember. It was the day I either lost my mind completely or decided that leaving this existence and my children was not an option. I somehow snuck past my family and somehow made it to my car. I can't even tell you to this day what I intended to do, I just knew that it wasn't my time. I ended up at Quest Diagnostics. I don't remember any of it. The story I have heard is that I basically stumbled in, rambling incoherently, and collapsing. Approximately 5 days later, I woke up in the intensive care unit. I was surrounded by doctors in what appeared to be space suits, my arms were filled with IV's, and beeping. As scary as this sounds, it wasn't. I was calm. I was alive. My next memory, and by far the most important, was seeing my children. That was all that mattered. I didn't even care about what I had, why I was there, or what was to happen next. It was that moment that I never wanted to end. This was the day I learned the definition of gratitude. My mom, the doctors, the infectious disease team that spent countless hours working on a diagnosis and treatment, my then-husband for his patience, and my children - and me. I am grateful for the me that didn't give up. I am grateful for the me that believed in miracles even when I had seemingly left my body. My diagnosis was Rat Bite Fever. Rat bite fever (RBF) is an infectious disease caused by bacteria that are normally found in the mouths and respiratory tracts of many pet and wild rodents, most commonly rats. In the United States, RBF is caused primarily by Streptobacillus moniliformis bacteria. Because RBF is not a reportable disease in almost every US state, it is unknown how many cases occur each year. However, RBF is believed to be rare. "Although it is more commonly reported to cause rat-bite fever with reactive arthritides, it can also lead to pyogenic infection of the joints. (or Septic Arthritis)" This was how the disease affected me the most acutely. The cartilage in and around my joints was basically disintegrated. Pain meds and cortisol shots were the treatment. I tried this for a couple of weeks. That was all it took for me to say, "No more." I decided that I wanted to do things my way. Being on painkillers and getting painful shots in multiple joints 1x per week was not on my life agenda. It was hard. So hard but I just stopped. After years of practicing yoga primarily for the physical & calming benefits, I stepped back into my practice with more of a seeking mentality. At that time, I wasn't sure what I was looking for but I knew that Yoga was the one thing in my life that made me feel better both physically and mentally.